guys, news flash, God is so cool.
so i've been at camp for roughly one month, i think i'm just 4 days shy of a full 4 weeks at NLR, which is great but the truth is i haven't had much time to process what i've learned and seen and experienced. Now i certainly am trying to keep up with the learning and processing in the moment, but realistically i get 5 hours of sleep a night and go non stop from the moment i rise till i go to sleep...so hard as i may try, my efforts may well be in vain. But that's what makes God so cool, He is faithful and awesome because although i may have no idea what i'm learning through my job at camp that doesn't mean that i'm not learning and that my mind isn't constantly swarming with thoughts and ideas and revelations about Him.
This is all came about last Wednesday night, i was with my co SAL Jessica and the nurse's assistant Kaitlyn, it was like 11:30 p.m. and we were on a late night walmart run to buy socks for a camper who had none and a new brush for a little girl who was being treated for lice(Lord save us all) and as we were driving away from the ranch Kaitlyn commented on how big the moon was, i kid you not the moment we looked at the moon we probably almost wrecked because we were so taken by its enormity and its beauty. The moon was huge and full and a fiery orange, i have never seen a moon so beautiful, so obviously we freaked out and started trying to figure out why it was that way, only to find that the lunar cycle was supposed to be a waning cresent, which i guarantee you, it was not. As we were talking about this miracle moon i made the comment that it was so extraordinary because the moon on its own is dull and ugly, it's nothing but a big rock in space, the only thing that makes it special is the light that it reflects from the sun. The glory of the moon is only possible because of the glory of another source.
So theres this Phil Wickham song that says "if you are the sun then i want to be the moon" which tied in so beautifully with our lunar joy, but for the past 5 days those words have been seared into my brain. God is so cool because we on our own are dull and ugly, we have nothing to offer, no beauty, no wits, no wisdom, nothing new or original or creative or meaningful. We are the moon, we are nothing but masses, taking up space, but we have purpose, we have an original source that shines it's brilliant light upon us and allows us to be the light in the darkness.
Heres the other cool thing about that, ever since that day i have been seeing so many beautiful pictures of people in my life and the lives of my friends being the moon to the sun, that is Jesus Christ. you see, the Lord has but some truly incredible people in my life that very literally are the hands and feet of Christ to either myself or my friends. I have these friends who are in a relationship and she was describing to me how the boy had been so consistent in his pursuit of her since the very beginning, even when she waivered and pushed him away and needed breaks, he would allow it, but he never stopped caring for her and never stopped fighting for her...now i know that it's cheesy on the surface level, but the truth is Jesus is using that boy as a picture of Himself in my friends life. in reality that relationship isn't about two flawed people trying to work something out, it's about the Lord receiving glory, and the truth is that's what it's all about, this life on the surface may look cliche and standard, but realistically every word, every action, every moment of every day is about the Father receiving the glory that is due Him. He allows us to not only be image bearers, but glory bearers.
He allows us to be the moon.
Thank God that i am dull and ugly and invaluable.
let me soak up the light, that i may be a light, reflecting Him in the dark.
-abbie-
*i just want to spend one day doing nothing but watching Downton Abbey and Arrested Development.
