A Hopeful Transmission

Ok so I just read my friend Sadie's blog and was inspired to do what she had done in her blog, thought it was a pretty good way to get me thinking and get the juices flowing in my brain, so here goes.

Currently I am....
....sitting in Arsagas trying to avoid eye contact with my professor who just walked in(i am confident that she: a. doesn't know my name, and b. hates me)

....listening to my knew favorite song, U.F.O by coldplay, i am absolutely raving over their new album. if i could only listen to one band for the rest of my life it would be coldplay, hands down.

......missing my best friends Karly Kenyon, Meredith Dunn, and Meredith Hawkins. lost without them.

.....praying that God will do work in teaching me how to be administrative

.....wondering what the Lord has in store for me as the new president of IJM at the U of A.

.....wondering what the Lord has in store for me for the summer, New Life? Summer School? Internship? I HAVE NO IDEA. but i like it that way.

....pondering how it is just so funny that God can completely change everything you thought you ever wanted in the blink of an eye and to your surprise you find out that the new thing is actually what you wanted...you just never knew it until you let go.

....thinking about how homesick i am for Heaven. my heart longs to be with Jesus. I don't care about bucket lists or changing the world before I die, sure those are good adventures along the way, but in this one the destination is way more beautiful than the journey. I wanna meet my Savior face to face. Hug Him. see Him smile like I have never seen anyone smile because it will be full of perfect and complete joy and love. I have tears in my eyes thinking about that moment. I can't wait. I pray that I live a life here on Earth that is evidence to Him of just how much I love Him, because my love for Him is beyond reason and explanation, and its because His love for me is outside of reason and explanation. Beautiful.

......also i am avoiding homework..dang it, why am i the worst?

I have this problem where all i want to do is throw myself head first into EVERY opportunity, I don't want to miss things, I don't want to miss out on opportunities to do what I am passionate about, but I do that at the expense of my responsibilities. My greatest battle is that between ministry opportunities and school responsibilities. I think about dropping out every single day without fail. I pray every day that God give me a heart for school, but its just so hard when i'm not even learning about Him and at that not even liking my major...but then i remember, just a year and a half and then i'm done and i can truthfully say "here I am Lord, send me". GOSH I LOVE JESUS. I love Him so much. I can't even contain myself.

-Abbie.

ALSO i am currently consumed with my desire to be in Florida RIGHT NOW. my family is going for thanksgiving and i am potentially going in 2 weekends and its all i can think of cause i just want sunshine and the sea. the ocean is my love language. but really.